how we move from a to b, it can't be up to me..

...coz you don't know who I was before.

I swear, I still can't believe that guy used to be in Degrassi.

I think I'll start off this blog by saying that I finally quit my job & I must say that it was the most awkward conversation of my life. "Hello there, I'm quitting." Of course, I'd never quit a job unless I had another job in line. Yes, I got a call back from the office job I've been praying for. I, honestly, thought that I bombed my interview because the interviewer looked like she was giving me hate stares. &the interview ended w/ her saying that she'd call me to let me know whether or not I get the job the next day. But yes, I got the job & I start tomorrow already. I'm just happy that I get my own cubicle.

I'm definitely goinna miss Bes Buy, though. Shoot me for saying that but I'll miss the people mos definitely. I got kinna sad earlier today when some of my coworkers texted and called me to ask why I quit. I sat there for a good 5 minutes thinking to myself, "what the fuck have I done?" & then I thought about it and I'm moving on to bigger and better things.

I guess you can say the thought of moving on scares me. Sometimes, I think about how much I've grown over the past two years especially and how I've managed to be on my own and support myself, of course with the help of my parents as well. It's a crazy thought, and sometimes I wish I was just a kid again. I don't know. I'm fuckin weird.

&you...you still stay on my mind. It's only been a few months and I still think of the shouldas, couldas, and wouldas. I hate how what we have is so helpless right now but I'm a firm believer that everything happens for a reason.