I forgot how it is to be sober.

Damn, I feel like I never go on this shit anymore. I guess I've just been THAT busy. Well, for all of you guys who have been wondering what I've been up to, here you go..

Thursday 4/16; Went to Glaskat w/ Lumz & Cece hella last minute just coz we're so used to partying from Thurs til Saturdays and occasionally Sundays. I wanted to go coz I haven't been to Glaskat in hella long. The last time I went was that for that whack ass Pajama party back in summer 08. I remember because that was the last club I went to before I saw my parents in Vegas for summer vacay. Man oh man, do I have so many memories of shit happening at he club. (: club was just chill but I'm glad I kind of got to pre-party before El Aye.

Friday; Chill ass day. Did some last minute shopping after school for SoCal. Day was going pretty good til I got rear ended by some dumb ass bitches. Can't believe they tried to blame that shit on me, too. People these days need to learn how to drive. Took them mother fuckas' info and then left to pick up my check & then to SoCal.

Saturday; The Weekenders + Randy got to SoCal around 12ish? We wanted to go to the club but it was kinna late so we just rested up. Had some of the most randomest convos that night and then woke up around 10ish? 11ish? Went to go shop for a lil bit at Tyler Mall & Victoria Gardens and ate at Kabuki's. Got home, got ready, got faded. LOL! Why everyone was matching & shit tho? Rolled up to this event that Sha invited us to. Apparently, our swag was different - according to some guy who sat at our table. Whatev, I guess it was a compliment. Shit waas chill, but the after party was intense. Of course, the Weekenders had the spotlight as usual.

Sunday; I'm assuming I passed out on the floor next to the fire place coz that's where I woke up? Went to go grab something to eat in my boxers, even though I didn't have much of an appetite. Got ready and headed back to the Bay by early afternoon. Played some funny games on the car ride home. I realized that it was 420 by that midnight so I stayed up for a midnight blunt.

Monday; Went to school, high. Went to work, high. Went to Randy's, got even more fucked up. Went to the beach with the girls and CB Tone & Randy and Krystal. Went back to the house and I was stuck like woah. Edibles fuck me up, foreal.

That was some weekend. I love my life, foreal.

I'm so ready for this weekend..

I feel like I'm high right now because I'm soo tired and I feel like can KO at anytime because I'm so fuckin tired from work.

Let's see, this weekend..I...partied w/ the weekenders. Shame on you, you should already know by now. Well lemme "elaborate on that" as Cece would usually say.

Thurs; My weekend started on Thursday. Didn't really know what to expect of that night when I woke but then Jency's texted me at 4 telling me to be ready in 4 hrs because we were going to Sac. Couldn't figure out what to wear but I just decided to go w/ my fave yellow dress. I swear, I always have a crackin ass time whenever I wear that dress. (: Fuckin had Kareoke night in the car during the ride there then started pre-gaming once we got to Empire. I must say that it's probably my new favorite venue, next to The Mist. Club went by hella fast, tho. Don't remember much from that night except for takin hella pictures and being in the cages. Went to IHop after we got back to the city then went home.

Friday; Woke up w/ hella bruised all over my bod. Guess you can say I had a fun night. Chilled at granny's house til Jency's bday dinner and ate offa everyone's plate. (: Headed to SJ after for John Ross's party and got pretty drunk, not fucked up but just enough. Left for San Leandro after that then chilled there for a lil bit til we went back home.

Saturday; Worked til 7. Got off and went straight home to start getting ready for Bikini Massive aka Jency&Dina's bday party. Took hella shots of Patron&Bacardi but didn't get fucked up to my surprise. I think that was probably the first night that I was the soberest one out of all of us. Haha. I still had fun. When do I not have fun?

Sunday; Called in sick because I was hella tired the nxt morning and was running on 3 hrs of sleep. Luckily, the computers were down so they sent everyone home anyways. Stayed at home all day while everyone spent Easter Sunday w/ their fams. I was kinna disappointed because I wanted to take Easter Bunny photos. "/ Finished our group proj for English then got picked up by Rod & kicked it w/ him for a bit. Watched Walk Hard&Requiem of a Dream at his new spot, zooted. Haha. The two best movies to watch when you're high. Well, I thought so last night.

I'm so ready for this weekend, tho.

zooooted.

My title explains it all. Honestly, I'm soo fucking high now..it's ridiculous.

Sunday; Woke up to Jency's text because she wanted to go to church. Went to the mall real quick then stopped by Ant's BBQ. That's how you know we're savs..we get drunk off patron in the daylight. Stopped by Best Buy then thought long&hard about what to do for her bday..so we decided to have a telly. Telly was fun. A good amount of people came thrugh and I was kinna buzzed. Hella remember waking up the next morning and going "fuck, I have work in 2 hrs." I really hate that feeling but at the same time I find it hella funny.

I've been doin good these past 3 days with work. I just love how my new job keeps me focused&on top of my shit. But so far, I love my new job.

I could live like this forever. Well, maybe not forever, but I mean..I could keep doing this for now. I love the way my life is going. I've got the best friends, the best parents, good grades, a good job, my weekenders..I think I'm good with where I am right now.

Reality Check.

These past two nights were definitely something else.

Thursday; Got food w/ Debb after she got off from work then headed home to get ready to Abyss with the Weekenders. Wasn't really in club mode but I went anyways because it's Jency's bday weekend and I had to celebrate getting a new job. Haha. Club was whack but I still made the most out of it. I always find a way to have fun. Headed over to Jullian's place after with everyone else and drank some more, if you hadn't guessed already. All I remember is falling on my ass and bruising it. I really need to calm down on the drinking.

Friday; Felt hella tired the whole day and was still slightly recovering from the night before. Really didn't feel like going because I didn't have anything to wear but my loves, Debb, Marv & Randy went so I wanted to go. Plus, it's still Jency's bday weekend. Shit was full of drama but I thought the club was pretty crackin. Like I said, I always make the most out of my weekends. Chilled at Randy's this time and got high as fuck. I lost count of how many blunts we smoked. I swear I love STDing (smoke, thizz & drank). Shit was weird though, coz I don't even remember being fucked up. I was just chillen the whole night.

My night was going pretty well until one incident occured. It's funny coz YOU were probably too fucked up to even remember it happening. But bottom line is..it happened. & it sucks that it had to happen that way. And if it ain't obvious enough that you have to even IM me to ask...yes, I'm mad.

I'm done. I'm done w/ partying/going out for awhile.

25 Random Things About Me

I don't have a facebook (nor will I ever give into making one) so I'll do my 25 on here.

1. I can't do my homework in the light. I've tried but it seems like I think better in the night time. I don't know, I like to call it the "Batman Syndrome" because I don't do anything, in terms of homework, until the sun goes down. Maybe that's why I can't focus in class.

2. I have a tendency to buy nice things and never use them. Like my Louis, for example..I got it after graduation which was like almost 2 years ago? &I think I've only used it once &that was Valentines Day of last year. I guess I'm too scared I'll damage it or something.

3. I love Popeye's fried chicken but I only eat the skin. &that's it. Yeah, even my family thinks it's weird and my grandma gets hella mad that I waste food. Oh, and I'm pretty picky about my chicken, too.

4. Most people know already but I'm allergic to fish. Last time I accidentally ate fish, my face blew up and I looked like Quasimodo for about a week. So, please don't feed me anything with fish in it. It's not a pretty sight.

5. I love to party... (Haha, well that was NO secret)...but there would be nights when I'd just like to stay in and just order hella food and watch movies all night. Thank God for Chinese food on those lazy night.

6. My WEEKENDERS (aka Jency, Maria, Brad & Cece) keep me sane. No joke. I think that's why I look forward to my weekends. Ohmy, no homes, tho.

7. I think school can be a joke sometimes. Scratch that. I think it's a joke most of the time. I just don't understand how I need to take certain classes when they don't relate at all to my major.

8. I miss living in Vegas, sometimes. I don't know if it's Vegas that I miss or if it's living with my parents. Maybe it's my pool and my big ass room that I miss. I swear, life would be so much easier if I just moved back. What can I say tho, I love the BAY.

9. I'm a geek at heart. I love comic books and I attend those conventions when they're in town. I'm the one dressed up as Wonder Woman. Just kidding about the last part. I really collect comic books, tho.

10. I love sports especially Softball, Volleyball, Flag Football and Basketball too, sometimes. I grew up with all male cousins so I was never really a fan of Barbie.

11. I hate it when people make that noise when they eat bananas. That smacking sound that goes, "tsp, tsp". My cousin makes that sound when he eats and it bugs the shit outta me.

12. I hate the Lakers but I think Kobe is hella raw.

13. I just saw a shirt today that says, "I'ma Chris Brown a bitch". I think it's sad that his name became a verb. What's next? "That bitch Rihanna'd me"? People are funny.

14. I wanna get more tats & be hella tatted up like Tila. Well, maybe not that crazy but I do want another one. Tats are addicting. &my grandma saw my tats for the first time last week &I thought she was gonna cry. ): oh well, she probably forgot that have them by now.

15. I think I have OCD sometimes. Like, when I leave for school in the morning, I have to go back at least twice to make sure that I locked the door.

16. I love being SINGLE. It's funny, because two years ago I probably could have never pictured myself to be single. I admit that I do miss the comfort sometimes but then again, I think about where I'm at in life &I really don't think I could be in a relationship right now. &I wouldn't be able to do some of the stuff I do now. =X

17. I think I have insomnia, too. I have the hardest time falling asleep &I've had this problem ever since I was really young. Like I said, the Batman Syndrome.

18. I feel so young because everyone around me is turning 20 or even 21 before me. ):

19. I love my job because I get my own cubicle. &in my down time, I like to draw stick figures in the back of my notebook.

20. Any guy that can watch The City or Gossip Girl with me wins points in my book.

21. I miss Doug. That was the best cartoon show ever. & what ever happened to Boy Meets World? They don't show reruns anymore.

22. I think VH1 needs to stop it with the reality dating shows. Ray J can keep his though. I think he's HOT.

23. I just spent $100 on 50 pairs of fake eye lashes. That's the closest I'll ever get to looking like Kim Kardashian. ):

24. I've always wondered what it would be like to join the Real World. I'd prolly be the bitch fighting with everyone just because.

25. "I love getting my mouth enveloped.." I also love my friends&family. I love my life, bitch.

how we move from a to b, it can't be up to me..

...coz you don't know who I was before.

I swear, I still can't believe that guy used to be in Degrassi.

I think I'll start off this blog by saying that I finally quit my job & I must say that it was the most awkward conversation of my life. "Hello there, I'm quitting." Of course, I'd never quit a job unless I had another job in line. Yes, I got a call back from the office job I've been praying for. I, honestly, thought that I bombed my interview because the interviewer looked like she was giving me hate stares. &the interview ended w/ her saying that she'd call me to let me know whether or not I get the job the next day. But yes, I got the job & I start tomorrow already. I'm just happy that I get my own cubicle.

I'm definitely goinna miss Bes Buy, though. Shoot me for saying that but I'll miss the people mos definitely. I got kinna sad earlier today when some of my coworkers texted and called me to ask why I quit. I sat there for a good 5 minutes thinking to myself, "what the fuck have I done?" & then I thought about it and I'm moving on to bigger and better things.

I guess you can say the thought of moving on scares me. Sometimes, I think about how much I've grown over the past two years especially and how I've managed to be on my own and support myself, of course with the help of my parents as well. It's a crazy thought, and sometimes I wish I was just a kid again. I don't know. I'm fuckin weird.

&you...you still stay on my mind. It's only been a few months and I still think of the shouldas, couldas, and wouldas. I hate how what we have is so helpless right now but I'm a firm believer that everything happens for a reason.

snap ya fingaz..

Damn, it seems like forever since I last blogged. I guess I've just been too busy w/ work&school. I told you.. it's taking over my life.

My weekend started early this week, on Thursday. Tonic had an event at our newest venue, Club NV. The club was wayy more crackin than the one on Tuesday. I don't think I've ever been that fucked up at the club. I swear tho, the first 30-40mins of the club..I couldn't even walk straight. I don't think I've had that much fun at a club in awhile. After the club, we all just chilled at Ju's house and drank even more. Woke up and felt like shit so I didn't go to my first class.

Friday; Took a nap after school and then got picked up by Marv. We didn't know what else to do so we went to the movies &watched Monsters Vs. Alien in 3D. Shit was hella sick. Hahaa. I think me&Marv enjoyed the movie more than the little kids did. After the movie, we went home and got ready to go to SanJo. Once again, it was a success even though the cops came around 130ish. Got some food, then I headed over to Ju's. Chilled there, watched Twilight & everyone except me KTFOd so I took some shots by myself. -_- then I KTFOd.

Saturday; Woke up hungry for some odd reason so me&Lumz got some Kamameshi. Gahdamn, I love their beef teriyaki. Went home after that around 2 or 3ish & recovered for the rest of the day til Joel woke me up to have dinner at 8. Got ready &then we went to BJs. Then, I got dropped off at Ju's to meet up w/ the weekenders. We didn't really know what to do so then we went to some party in the Eastbay. I must've taken 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10..shots?I lost count but whatever. Shit was pretty fun, I must admit. We all went to Arujo's after then home.

&now it's Sunday and I'm writing this blog right now because I'm still lightweight drunk and I can't sleep. The past few weekends were pretty crazy but I think this tops all of them. Why can't all weekends be like this?

I think I'll try to sleep one more time. Goodnight.