Productive

It's about that time of the semester. Oh yes, finals week. I don't know, there's just something about finals week that gets me even more stressed than I am even though I've pretty much secured my standings in each class. The only thing I'm prolly scared of as of right now is my English paper on Othello because it determines whether or not I maintain my above 3.0 gpa. It's funny how I'm stressing off whether or not I get an A in that class when about a month ago, I was a step away from being dropped from all my classes. Good girl act? Nah, this little kitty has traded in the club for the library. At least for now...

Finals week also means I'm getting ready for my annual trip to see the parents in Vegas. About a year ago, I was crying because I did not want to leave the bay at all. Now, I'm pretty excited to just get away from all the stress building up. My mini getaway last weekend was cool, but I really need to leave to get some thinking done. I think stress has just become my new best friend. Like they say, "What doesn't kill you only makes you stronger." Some words I continue to live by.

Shit has definitely been building up in my life as far as school, work, family, and even my friends. I don't wanna say that everything is falling apart, because in reality, it's actually put me back together. I've slowly gotten to where I wanna be with school and everything but it's just a matter of keeping my focus on that as well as other aspects in my life.

Whether or not I do come back for the fall is completely up to me according to my parents. It's for me to decide whether or not I wanna keep running away form everything again or just grow up and deal. Whatever happens by the time vacay is over, I'm sure it's gonna change everything. Every single time I've been to Vegas, I'd come back in the fall and something would always be different. Hm, or maybe I'm just different. That should be interesting.

I think I'm gonna lay low in the meantime.

xoxo,

A

Patron, tequila

This week has been pretty good to me, I must say.

Recap;

Got to El Aye around 1230ish, 1:00 and chilled til the next day. Chill trip so far until the Glow in the Dark / Highlighter party. I damn sure wasn't expecting all of that. Ha. I just love how there's a different theme for each parlay. Started the night off by using the beer bong. I think I did pretty well for my first time. Shit comes at you hella fast, though. Mhm, I said it. 11 o' clockish and I was just playing some beer pong with some strangers and can I just say that I'm hella raw in beer pong? Left the garage because I was pretty tipsy off some beer and went inside to see hella people arriving. Chilled on the couch for a lil bit and next thing you know, BOOM. I was gone off that LTD. I don't think I've ever been that ova since that one night after NV. The party really felt like a dream because it was all dark and smokey, and everyone's face was just a blur. I remember just glancing at my phone to check the time, and I realized it was already 4. wtf. I seriously didn't want that night to end. The next day, we went to irvine to explore and then eat. Felt hella drained after that so we headed home.

Other that that, I've been doing pretty good with school. Went from C's to A's in all my classes, and i've actually caught up with all the homework. Jefferson School District is also willing to give me my job back as a P.E. Aide, that is if I'm able to come back for the fall semester.

I'm pretty excited about Vegas because that means laying by my pool all summer, mom's cooking, and no work or school. Oh, and my upcoming birthday, too. AHEM.

I really hope my parents let me come back for the fall, and hopefully they see that I'm doing better than in the past few months. Either way, it feels like a fresh new start for me.

<3

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you can appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust noone but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."

I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best."

--Marilyn Monroe

Hop up out the bed..

turn my swag on. Yeahhhhh! I haven't been blogging for the past two days because I've been too busy with school. Yeah, school. It sucks to be suspended from work but in a weird way, I'm hella happy that I did because I've had time to really relax this whole week. I love the feeling of waking up and knowing that I don't have work. I also got to catch up with school, and I think I'm actually back on track. There's about 2 more weeks left of school plus finals week, and then I'm dunzoo.

This week has been a rollercoaster. I've had some highs and lows this week, as well as some events that are out of my control now. I've strengthen some friendships and some friendships are not as strong as they used to be. I've finally found that balance between school, work, and the nightlife. I've learned some lessons this week that I'll definitely carry on with me forever. I've learned that I can't always have it my way and change is gonna happen no matter what you do. I've learned to deal with change, and not to fear it because things are constantly changing. I just didn't think it would hit me this fast.


I'm so excited for summer vacay because that means I'll be going to Vegas soon and that I'm turning 20 soon ! I've definitely missed my family and the house, the pool, the outlets, the malls, ummm..Circus Circus? Ha. I can't wait to just relax and do nothing for a good month.

I just want to thank everyone who's been there for me these past weeks. I love all of you.